Saying his "mythic, perfect story" was "one big lie," Lance Armstrong
admitted that he cheated during most of his famed cycling career and
that he bullied people who dared to tell the truth about it.
After
denying doping allegations for more than a decade, he also said he used
banned drugs or blood transfusions during all seven of his victories in
the Tour de France.
"I will spend the rest of my life trying to
earn back trust and apologize to people," Armstrong told talk-show host
Oprah Winfrey in an interview that aired Thursday night.
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Armstrong,
41, said he started taking performance-enhancing drugs in the mid-1990s
and that his "cocktail" of choice was banned testosterone, EPO and
blood transfusions using his own boosted blood.
He disputed that
he doped during his comeback in 2009 and 2010, saying the last time he
"crossed the line" with banned substances was in 2005, his last victory
in the Tour de France.
But he still said his comeback in 2009
might have doomed him because it gave anti-doping officials a chance to
build the case against him. He said the comeback "didn't sit well" with
teammate Floyd Landis, who accused Armstrong of doping in 2010.
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"We wouldn't be sitting here if I didn't come back," he said.
Instead
of telling the truth about his cheating, Armstrong said he kept
covering it up because he got swept up in the "momentum" of his own
legend. He was the cancer survivor turned superhero, the squeaky clean
rider waving the American flag in victory.
"It just gets going, and I lost myself in all that," Armstrong said.
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He
also said he didn't think he could compete if he didn't turn to doping
because doping was so pervasive in cycling. "I didn't invent the
culture, but I didn't try to stop the culture," Armstrong said.
The
90-minute broadcast was taped Monday in Austin, Texas, Armstrong's
hometown. A second portion of the interview will air Friday night.
It
marked the cyclist's first extended public comments since the U.S.
Anti-Doping Agency released more than 1,000 pages of doping evidence
against him October. The evidence included sworn statements from former
teammates and friends who detailed how and when he used
performance-enhancing drugs.
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Armstrong
said he rationalized his use of testosterone because one of his
testicles was removed in his fight against cancer. "I thought, 'Surely,
I'm running low (on testosterone),'" Armstrong said.
He also admitted to mistreating people as he tried to preserve the cover-up.
"Yeah, I was a bully," Armstrong said.
Not
only did he attack those who told the truth about him, he sued them
when they did. At one point, when Winfrey asked him if he had sued Emma
O'Reilly, a former team masseuse who told of his doping, Armstrong
wasn't sure. "To be honest, Oprah, we sued so many people," he said.
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He
called his behavior "inexcusable" and described himself as "a guy who
expected to get whatever he wanted and to control every outcome."
To
make amends, he said he has reached out to those he attacked for
telling the truth about him, including O'Reilly and Betsy Andreu, the
wife of former cyclist Frankie Andreu. He said he spoke with both
Andreus in a 40-minute phone call recently but did not make peace with
them.
"No, because they've been hurt too badly," Armstrong said.
He
denied pressuring other cyclists into doping, contrary to their
testimony in the USADA case. But he acknowledged he has a credibility
problem after defiantly lying about his doping for so long.
"I'm not the most believable guy in the world right now. I understand."
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He
even said he thought he could get away with it last year after the
federal government dropped a criminal investigation into whether he
committed fraud through his doping scheme. The case was dropped without
explanation.
"I thought I was out of the woods," Armstrong said.
But
USADA continued to investigate and offered him the opportunity to
cooperate. In response, Armstrong said he could not resist his tendency
to defend his turf, no matter what. He turned USADA down and fought
back, suing the agency in an effort to challenge its jurisdiction – a
lawsuit that eventually was thrown out of court.
"I'd do anything
to go back to that day," Armstrong said of the day USADA gave him the
opportunity to come clean. "Because I wouldn't fight, I wouldn't sue
them."
USADA banned him for life from sanctioned events and
stripped him of his seven titles in the Tour de France. By coming clean,
Armstrong hopes to reduce that ban and compete again - a goal that will
require much more than talking to Oprah. Anti-doping officials have
made clear that he will have to cough up more details under oath.
After
the broadcast, USADA said in a statement, "Tonight, Lance Armstrong
finally acknowledged that his cycling career was built on a powerful
combination of doping and deceit. His admission that he doped throughout
his career is a small step in the right direction. But if he is sincere
in his desire to correct his past mistakes, he will testify under oath
about the full extent of his doping activities."
Livestrong, the
cancer-fighting charity Armstrong founded 15 years ago, said in a
statement it was "disappointed by the news that Lance Armstrong misled
people during and after his cycling career, including us."
Armstrong stepped down from Livestrong's board in November, saying he did not want his troubles to reflect on the charity.
The
Livestrong statement noted he had apologized to the charity's staff
earlier this week, "and we accepted his apology in order to move on and
chart a strong, independent course. We look forward to devoting our
full energy to our mission of helping people not only fight and survive
cancer, but also thrive in life after cancer.
"Even in the wake of
our disappointment, we also express our gratitude to Lance as a
survivor for the drive, devotion and spirit he brought to serving cancer
patients and the entire cancer community."
In a preview of
Friday's part two of the interview, Armstrong described the day in
October when all of his sponsors dropped him after USADA's evidence was
released to the public. Referring to his loss in income, he called it a
"$75 million day."
On his mother's reaction to his admission, he said, "She's a wreck."
"This is too late," Armstrong said of his confession. "It's too late for probably most people, and that's my fault."
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